You don't have to read this.

i am losing patience. i don't like this feeling. but i just am really frustrated, and nothing is working out the way i want it to. i wish i could customize my entire life, every little detail. just go through and build a little Sims life for myself. i want to be passing all of my classes like i have been for the past 12 years, i want to not wreck my car on wildlife, i want my best friends to actually live near me, i want to be able to do wrestling cheer because i love it, i want to have enough money to pay for my cruise and to afford clothes that aren't falling apart, i want to go on the music department's trip to California for the final time, i want unlimited texting and service at my house so i can communicate with my far away best friends, i want to go back to Lumberton and see all of the kids i grew up with, i want to be certain of which college i want to go to, i want a normal-looking haircut, i want to stop being constantly exhausted all the time, and i want the only thing that can always make me smile for weeks on end without fail. materialistic as this may sound... i kind of don't care. because my toes are cold and i have no bedsheets and i have weird dreams. thus, i am exempt from your judgement.